That's totally understandable.. really you've been running this thing for several years now and honestly things like that you just have to step away from after a while and keep life fresh.
I've run some community based type things in the past decade of my life and its weird how being at the head of it all is a totally different experience than everyone else gets. People want you to keep going but when its run its course for you, you know it and its time to do something else... otherwise you just end up feeling like you never want to do it and its more of a situation you just feel stuck in, and its weird how it takes so long to really acknowledge that you're not into it any more.
And it is strange / kind of shitty how any time you get a community going, people latch on to it as a reason to feel special, but then act like because they are special they are so much cooler than anyone else who comes along after themselves.
I mean this is a community of self proclaimed "losers" and to turn around and harshly reject another person because they are a "loser" seems kinda obviously a demonstration of using the community as a means to feel like the cool person, instead of what it should be..